With joy you will draw water from the wells of salvation.
My family was the typical family on the outside, but on the inside we weren’t. I was sexually abused by my neighbor when I was young. My parents both battled with addictions. Depression runs on my mom’s side of the family. I grew up in a small town, went to a small school. I was bullied a lot in school by the same kids for 12 years, mostly for being overweight. I didn’t have a lot of friends. In high school I started to get really depressed and began turning to self harm as a way to cope with the depression. I battled that demon for years. Cutting was my escape. It was my addiction.
When I graduated I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I couldn’t find any work right away and was in a very dark place in a very unhealthy, unstable relationship. I was also starting to remember details of my abuse as a kid and trying to work through that. I just couldn’t cope. All I wanted was to die. So I attempted suicide but by God’s grace I failed. When it didn’t work I was desperate. I just wanted to feel better. I just wanted to stop the horrible feelings that I felt inside. I wanted the loneliness to stop. I wanted the pain to go away. I just wanted help.
But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.
Again I ask: Did they stumble so as to fall beyond recovery? Not at all! Rather, because of their transgression, salvation has come.
The Lord is my strength and my defense ; he has become my salvation.
I pray today for anyone who is out there suffering. Please Father be their light and guide them into your salvation. Lord, thank you for your perfect, unfailing, unconditional love. Your grace and mercy saves us each and every day. Blessed be Your name as we continue to praise You and Your plans for our lives. You have given us hope and a future and that through You we may do the good things you planned for us. Lord, I pray that You bless my words and speak through me to anyone who needs hope. Praise to You for we are fearfully and wonderfully made in Your image. Thank you for saving us Lord. Thank you for Your sacrifice, Jesus: the savior of the world, so that we may live a life serving You. Blessings and peace to all. In Your glorious name I pray, Amen.
For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago. -Ephesians 2:10 ♥